Hello dear friend, from a snow-covered Poland, and a happy Full Moon to you!
(☝️digging out the car with my fam)
On the last night in Berlin, after walking in a thunderstorm, I shared with a friend:
I feel like today marks an end of a chapter.
and so it was indeed. While I'm still on an intense journey through the mainland, with a few stops to go before I return to Pico Island, being with my family is a completely different beast. And, to be honest, not an easy one.
I love my family, and I feel so much gratitude for all the support over the years, and also - all the resistance. The resistance lead me to leave the coziness of the family home to embark on a neverending journey of following my personal legend.
I'm now 34 years old, and still przystojny [handsome] according to my mum!
(☝️My father and I celebrated our birthdays last week - we're 30 years and 1 day apart, and mum finds him handsome too.)
Being with the Family is the ultimate spiritual practice. I find myself in a constant flow of triggers which is emotionally exhausting. I find it extremely difficult to own my vocabulary - it's almost like my throat chakra is half blocked, and what comes out is a faint resonance of what my heart wants to express, leaving me feeling crippled, because words are spells and I am a wizard.
On the other hand, my body is my dear friend, and I've been owning kinetic processing, in a form of rolling on the floor and moving in ways that are not a part of my family's lifestyle, right in front of them. As I move I regain stillness, reconnect with myself, embrace the triggers, process them into vibes, and eventually I am able to smile and beam out infinite joy transforming the entire energy in the room.
Or at least, sometimes I can. Other times I stay silent, witnessing, and just Being. Yet, always remaining grateful to my ancestral line, even if I don't always resonate with how they choose to live, nor do I always succeed in expressing my feelings in a way that I wish I could.
I am the pattern breaker.
I make the choice to embody change
I choose to make.
I break free and yet
as I break
I embrace that I am
the very pattern I choose to break
As these ☝️ words come out, I notice that my body needs to move, so I roll out my yoga mat for another session building on the unbreakable vow I made back in Pico over 40 days ago.
And I have a card to prove it:
Here's a wee reflection video, recorded in Berlin last week when I was adding the 33rd dot on that card:
Totally Proof of Badass.
Speaking of... During the Pirate Gathering in the Netherlands I've discovered a PRINCIPLE. It's always amazing to discover a principle, especially when it's one of the key components of many games I am playing at the moment.
It particularly applies to Prioritise Priorities, which has been on my play-shop (I don't work anymore, so it's not a workshop) for a while now, and I have a hint it will be one of my best games to date.
The Prioritise Priorities game is now open for foreplay!
It includes a 1:1 onboarding into the game with me, super gentle check-in through the process, and a reflective call at the end. Plus - a financial mini-game — Play to Invest.
A Pirate friend is already playing and making some delicious cards in the process:
From other adventures...
I've hosted three book launch events for "How to Build a Regenerative Village" in Lisboa, Amsterdam, and Berlin, and, to no surprise, I felt like fish in the water 🐡. There's something magickal about how this entire book came together, and it still feels that the journey is not complete.
As I take my time to change focus, the insights from Enspiral Gathering, Pirate Gathering, and other magickal moments incubate in the back of my mind and heart, and I'm already setting the space for moving the energy that wants to come out and Play.
But before that, I have a few last moments with the family, allowing me to find new ways to connect with them, like recording a podcast with my mum about her badass pickled food production:
There was some serious magick in these jars, believe you me.
And I guess, the most important insight, that I am so grateful to be able to reframe how I relate to my almost 95-yo-granny (which used to be me ultimate challenge, always able to put me out of balance), and who now I can chill with, and say with a big smile on my face that I love her dearly. Ain’t she a cutie?
Okay, it’s time to fly back to Portugal. Quick visit to TDF, a day or two in the South, and then I'll be in Lisbon for a couple of days next week, before heading back to Pico on the 🌑.
If you are around and want to play together, let me know ✨
Your Wizard,
Michał
ps. I finally completed my Moonly Video from the previous cycle. I even shown the entire collection of videos to my granny, which felt incredibly exposing, but also magickal - sharing visual snippets of my life, which is so foreign to her.
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